January 2012
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Before you.
Before you I never cried when right I was always out and about at night I use to madly dance and sing I would go around bossing I would never listen to anyone I always got my things done I smoked as much as i wanted I always walked and wondered Before you, I use to praise the sun I would flirt with strangers for fun I was never going back home I’d wear gladiators when in rome I was always...
December 2011
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I don't know why
But I keep getting followers…
Maybe someone reblogged me or something.
I don’t know why you follow me as I’m pretty amateur,
but I am glad you do.
If anyone wants to send me views on my writing I would love it.
Truly thank you guys.
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First Fights
Always so sure - you and your matureness Always so damn right - against me and my stupidness Calling me weak Telling me to grow Making me sad and sick Making me want to go Never answering my questions Never reacting to my actions Left alone to cry myself to sleep And behind a cigarette my answers to seek
You can’t avoid first fights But they are easier to soft with kisses and love bites...
October 2011
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One Night Only.
For what you’ve said I should have left you The streets I should have hit but I missed it There I was - I said. You laugh a bit. In need of a taste of forbid; a taste of freedom. A taste of you. I was there and your body was over mine. There we kissed and stayed. Denied when asked If I would had to leave There I wanted to be. There I stay and further we went. To your room we danced, To your...
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Taken too.
Show down time I open my cards I open my heart I’m waiting But you don’t move Won’t say out loud I need to hear from you But i don’t hear a sound I get, you’re trapped But are you where you wanna be? Feels like you are hiding I’m blinding There’s something in you I can’t see.
[written by B]
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Dry.
You said that you missed me But I didn’t say so I did it too I’m your waterloo I proved The Game wrong I proved you’re not that strong To all the hearts you broke Your heart now I ditch For all that we spoke, Karma is indeed a bitch.
[written by B]
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Missed
The worst of this is missing all that we could have been and all than we could have done When nothing ever happened And nothing was ever said Still I miss what could have turned out Still I miss having you, when I actually never had. When I actually never touched you, When we never ever kissed. I miss the ideas of your hugs, when you never ever touched me.
[written by B]
August 2011
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Sorry, i shall remain the same.
No man in earth should deny his way As when one do so his popularness may raise but the emptiness won’t ever sway I had no intention to be praised I had no argumentation to be seized I have no heaven to be appraised I never try to do good or better I have no idol on my elders My actions take no cations Because it’s known that life gets harder when you try to live upon others...
May 2011
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Someone Else's Story
Drag myself to a shallow state I’m trying to get out of it sane. Keep telling myself that I must be brave, keep telling myself every day the same. And that man is not a bachelor and it saddens you sometimes. Second girls aren’t choosers but they can’t make things go right. And In the morning when you’re falling asleep with her - i know I know there’s someone that will always...
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Dark Rooms
Blind I’d rather be, Than this scene to see. I knew the truth for long, I know that you’re not wrong, But maybe i’m not so Strong. Not that I love you, I don’t. Or that I will, I won’t, Just blind I’d rather be, Than this scene to see. I rather this sight to burn And see the dark in return, I rather be in dark rooms, even if not real, Only dark rooms, to me, have appeal.
[written by B]
April 2011
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On life.
I think a lot about life, and so about death. It won’t leave my mind the fact that it does not matter what you had accomplished or built, you are going to die. No matter how much you devote yourself to something, someday the string is detached. Those filled with vain might want to build something that last forever, and the spiritualists might devote their lifetime to others and believe they...
February 2011
2 posts
afandiismail asked: We're the ones who still believe
And we're looking for a page
In that lifeless book of hope
Where a dream might help you cope
With the bushes and the bombs
Are tranquilized.
And we're looking for a page
In that lifeless book of hope
Where a dream might help you cope
With the bushes and the bombs
Are tranquilized.
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Taken boy.
His ways, his ideals, My good Will, he steals My will to behave, Lost in a waive, His eyes of innocence betray And beg me to take that innocence away
[written by B]
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Heartbroken.
Your eyes, and smile, and charm. Your voice, and laugh, and frame. Your hand in my waist, your voice in my head, your breath on my neck… … suddenly, gone.
[written by B]
January 2011
4 posts
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Star
It’s like she’s iluminated or something… People who come across her, like her. When she first step in the room you won’t notice her… But when you get to talk to her, it’s just so automatic. People who come across her way, stay. Something about her mean smile and innocent eyes. You won’t notice it at first, but once you get to know her… She’s...
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Ak-ward.
I needed you to do that, To forget and make me forget, I needed you to put an end I needed to get the message you sent. We are done. Never had anything, Probably meant nothing, Feelings are gone. I needed you, I didn’t know why. I needed you to be mine. Not anymore, Not for a second more. We are done. Feelings are gone.
[written by B]
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Hello 2011.
Funny would it be if not cute your words. And the way you smile to the world. Your eyes hook every inch of my skin,
I must tell you my body screams, And my head spinning has been, So just you can let me in.
[written by B]
December 2010
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Wasteland
As much as I try, or not. And change my acts, my ways. And think about it, unknot…
To rely on my reason and be sane, No matter how reasonable I am… I’m not.
And I never go right. I never chose good. It was never safe there were I stood. Nothing nice ever fell on my laps. All good deed had always a gap. I am nowhere near a role model, But it’s not tasting that awful.
...
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Lust
Never thought I’d care so little. I will risk myself again if you will. Anytime, Anytime.
[written by B]
October 2010
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I Like.
I like the image you project to my eyes, the smile in your face puts a smile in mine. I like of the lyrics coming out through your lips and the way your hands danced my hips. You petrified me with your your kisses, in your arms, I want to be a mistress. I like the warmness of your breath, the idea of falling asleep on your chest. Your body was born to me mine, even if for a fraction of time.
...
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“Do me the favour to deny me at once.”
– Benjamin Franklin
July 2010
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The boy I loved a couple years ago.
It was never that clear to me what you really meant to me. I tried to make you perfect and failed miserable. I tried to make you evil, but never got even close. I tried to make you a friend, but we were never friends. I tried to make it passion, but we were never lovers. I tried to call it drama, but it only felt rational. I tried to make it past, but i couldn’t find memories. I tried to...
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Love
Unrequited love, unfulfilled love, broken hearts. Not happy love. Love that hurts, that is impossible, that kind of love. Me? I’m far from being in love, but isn’t reading about all this love stories so great? I mean, I will know i found love when i had to fight for it and i did not give up in the middle of the fight. Easy love is just not love.
[written by B]
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Poetry
I love reading amateur poetry. I love writing it. It’s so lame and stupid that it gets fun. The magic about it is that either people will get it and love it - and when that happens you laugh at them for taking it too serious, or they will hate it and called you emo/gay - so you can say they are heartless and know nothing about art.
[written by B]
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Questions
How to clean champagne out of silk? How much a cab at 5am from Daslu to home really should cost me? Is always losing my keys normal? Can I sleep in that couch next to the elevator when I do so? Can we know when we really like someone’s company or we are just trying to? Is enough ever really enough? Does anyone sticks with that one-drink-an-hour rule? Is there such thing as dancing too much?...
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“Before you jump,
Tell me what you find when you read my mind.”
– The Killers
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...
And let me tell you something Mr., you and I both know I am way more fun than this girl… But what can I say? Some like it rough.
[written by B]
June 2010
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Nightlife.
I went down to the street, to find what I’ve been missing all this time I was trapped. by my hope was defeat when i was around asking; what the fuck did just happened. you never know what you need and you never know if you love until you are sweetly feed and than brusquely shut off. i don’t need one to be happy i just miss anyone here badly that i can open up my heart to and hold hands...
May 2010
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I miss you
I stare at the blank screen, a white canvas in between, this emptiness is obscene. With so much i’d like to tell, this silent feels like hell. How many letters i need to spell, when eight aren’t doing well?
[written by B]
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“I wish you’d stop ignoring me
Because you’re sending me to despair...”
– Arctic Monkeys
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“Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That...”
– Langston Hughes
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True Love
Bonnie never fired a shot, She just followed [Clyde] no matter where he went.
[said Clyde’s brother. I’m putting a tittle and making this a poem.]
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Sex
You kiss me and you know how far you want this to go. You touch my hair slowly, your eyes stare me brusquely, and your month keeps mine busy. I have no desire to resist, you have no need to insist; you shouldn’t expect the least when burning lust exists.
[written by B]
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Sucker lover.
Never did he cared and never did he chased, little did he do and less did he say. I’m yet to see him sorry or trying, or making a move. Never will he call or apologize when wrong. Any fight and easily he will let me go, and not once will hold on. Who wants to be with someone that won’t make them feel even if a little, special?
[written by B]
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“I don’t care if you really care as long as you don’t go.”
– The Cardigans
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Let him go.
it’s hard to get over it when you don’t want to. all I wish is that I could hold you and kiss you. i miss you intensely and sincerely.
[written by B]
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I saw her yesterday.
With their heads down and carrying a guilty silent the perfect find from all town, the true is decent - two cowards make a great couple.
[written by B]
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Anonymous asked: Not a question but a comment. I really liked your last posting. Sensible, balanced and fun. I loved your "get a job that kills your boredom," line. For many people easier said than done. But something to strive for. As a future economist, perhaps killing boredom is something to factor in along with salary and benefits.
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A Guide for Life.
trust your instincts, enjoy your friends company, study only what pleases you, dance all night long once a week, wear make-up that makes you look fresh, don’t be too attached to your stuff, smile even when you’re crying, hold hands with the one you love, do whatever makes you feel good, don’t waste more than 8 hours a day sleeping, expect from people only what is expected from...
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“Lover please do not,
fall to your knees it’s not
like I believe in...”
– Laura Marling
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A Prayer for Compassion.
I wasn’t where I was to complain and never I thought you could explain, all that desperation in your eye. But stupid poor me did innocently buy that you had indeed suffered from love, but the hidden question was way above. My twisted mind was hooked on your silent when it was your honesty that was absent. And to hear from another this fact and to know it was all a rehearsed act, I must...
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Falling.
Oh one with empty hand and bare foot in the sand - straight up that mind that is mad, stand up and raise that head; because pale blue eyed one, worse days are yet to come.
[written by B]
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Memories
I forgot how your kisses taste, And what we used to call fate; I don’t remember your smell Or the stories you used to tell, But I will never forget that night When you kissed my healing skin, and held me tight.
[written by B]
“Sex and writing live on playful cruelties.”
– Jason Cooley
“Standing on the edge of morning
Scent of sex and new found glory
Playing as...”
– Something Corporate
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Rant
Checking in because I have no diary or lately no urge to pick up the phone and dial any number… It’s a new blank page in my life but this time I got writers block. I want to do something new but I’m perfectly fine on my own. It’s funny how some ppl get me and some people don’t… I feel so different and in another mindset than others around, don’t expect...
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On and on.
Another day, another heart, another lover. Feelings come and go. I love you, I miss you, I’m sick of you. Easy come, easy go. Like a seasonal bird, once here, once gone. Haven’t you heard? I moved on.
[written by B]
“I know I said I loved you but I’m thinking I was wrong,
I’m the...”
– Laura Marling